I'm in a really dark place lately, and I'm not able to apply myself to advancing on the daycount for the recovery blog. I'm sorry.
I just don't know where my life is going... what anything is supposed to mean. I could be standing in this place for years, and that's okay and all. I can accept this place, it isn't a bad place. My soul just has nothing positive to say about it. It allows me to subsist. I eat alright, the work is... okay. The people are nice to me. The weather is okay. There just isn't anything that makes me want to push myself harder. There isn't any reason to climb upwards. If the heavenly will isn't there, what can I do against such forces?
I just don't know where my life is going... what anything is supposed to mean. I could be standing in this place for years, and that's okay and all. I can accept this place, it isn't a bad place. My soul just has nothing positive to say about it. It allows me to subsist. I eat alright, the work is... okay. The people are nice to me. The weather is okay. There just isn't anything that makes me want to push myself harder. There isn't any reason to climb upwards. If the heavenly will isn't there, what can I do against such forces?
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