did you ever want something so badly you couldn't imagine a world without it? Like you thought you might die if it wasn't there, you don't know who to be in a world without this perfect wonderful just out of reach thing? Then you tell other people about it and they just don't understand. They don't understand it and it breaks you.
You wish someone could give you some definition, give you some way to define this, to tell you it all worked out okay in the end for them. No one does. Life goes on and day by day you get used to that dull ache in the bottom of your soul.
You fill your life with noise and games, trying to block out the fact that you are in essence incomplete. Some people, more than I can put a number to, will tell you this is what adulthood is about. That there is no such nirvana as to be complete. It would be nice to believe them, but your heart still won't let go. You are mourning for the could have been and the never was, or the what should be and the what has not yet come to be. There is no future for you that you can really....fit with, because you don't know if missing a part of you will ever go away. Welcome to the planet.
You wish someone could give you some definition, give you some way to define this, to tell you it all worked out okay in the end for them. No one does. Life goes on and day by day you get used to that dull ache in the bottom of your soul.
You fill your life with noise and games, trying to block out the fact that you are in essence incomplete. Some people, more than I can put a number to, will tell you this is what adulthood is about. That there is no such nirvana as to be complete. It would be nice to believe them, but your heart still won't let go. You are mourning for the could have been and the never was, or the what should be and the what has not yet come to be. There is no future for you that you can really....fit with, because you don't know if missing a part of you will ever go away. Welcome to the planet.
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